You guys are my heroes. Seriously. :bow: I'm "lucky" enough my disability doesn't show. -- Hands that tremor, One trick knee that surgery didn't fix (it goes out from under me a coupla times a day with no warning), "sensitized" lungs (many solvents, welding fumes, and acrid smoke all make me cough until I nearly pass out), obstructive sleep apnea (surgery failed and my BiPap is set at the highest setting commercially available), and a heaping side of major depression. None of those things mean I "can't" do stuff, it just means that I can't do it at a pace anybody would pay me for.... And I just love it when the guy behind me at the store assumes I'm a lazy freeloading "raccoon" because he can't "see" anything wrong! :redface2: When I do more physical work I try to balance things. I keep a chair or stool handy, Work a bit, rest a bit, work a little more sit until the shaking stops.... I'll get there eventually. Painting or welding requires a fan on high to blow the fumes away from me. (Even some acrylics set me off). Walk away as soon as I start to cough and stay away until the feeling passes... again, I'll get 'er done eventually. My biggest hurdle though is the depression. There can be days or sometimes even weeks where I just can't get started. Or if I do force myself to get at it, the work is less than stellar, and I end up having to redo much of it on another day. I have some pretty spendy daily meds that help me function until things build up and I shut down again.... Those who have had a bout with deep depression after a loss know what I mean. Mine, however, has decided to take up permanent residence. As a result I usually try to limit my projects to things I can complete between spells. Some I get done, others tend to get rotated to the back burner for weeks, months or even years. It's like procrastination on steroids. I should mention, I'm mostly a "fabricator" rather than a machinist. We live in a closetless 2br mobile home, so there's no real room for a lathe even if I had the money for one. I'll sometimes shape parts with a combination of soldering, a milling cutter in a dremel, hand files and a sanding drum mounted in the chuck of the tabletop drill press. I'll not win any prizes for fit or finish, but they mostly work well enough to get by for a while. I actually have THREE major projects nearing completion this summer. The little steam roller (http://www.homemodelenginemachinist.com/index.php?topic=9792.0), an Oil Pull pup (http://www.homemodelenginemachinist.com/index.php?topic=14836.0), and an iron wheeled wagon to mount a set of industrial pumps upon. The roller awaits a couple hundred $$ infusion of steel bar and sheet. The pup needs the engine valve seats reground, a brake pedal made, and repaint. The wagon axles are done and we're waiting for two 6x6 wooden sills 12 feet long and a 4x4 tongue to materialize. I was promised the wood would be donated by the first part of July. so I could have the pumps ready to mount by mid month And then there are my 1:24 board on board oil field projects. The Pennsylvania standard derrick project has been idle since April. But the South Penn pumping station hasn't been touched since February of 2011! I'd like to have them ready for the Steam Show at Portersville the first weekend in August, but my mojo just isn't cooperating. http://www.the-ashpit.com/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=2239&p=9761&hilit=derrick#p9761 http://www.the-ashpit.com/mik/southpenn.html Looking back, MOST of the stuff I actually got finished in the last couple years were mini projects that took no more than 3 days. A couple G scale (electric)locomotives, some freight cars, and a plastic building kit or two. Maybe the guys who say I'm 'just lazy' are right? I sure work a lot like a dilettante. Except when I don't. August 2 is the deadline for the 5 projects I mentioned. I want to have 3 completed (Pup, wagon. pumping station, and the other two presentable. wish me luck!